I watched the sun come up today

I thought, I don’t have to do anything. I don’t have to write. I don’t have to read. I don’t have to feel guilty if I’m not being productive.

So I sat in the corner of the couch and looked out the plate-glass window. The trees were black. The sky was gray, the clouds a slightly darker gray. Birds flew in and out of the trees. Steam rose from the neighbors’ pipe. After a while, the clouds turned white and the sky turned blue. It got brighter. I kept waiting for the sun to appear above the rooftops. I was done sitting. I was done waiting. I was ready to move. Stopping would be copping out. But staying to “finish the job” would be no better. Up on the third floor, I thought, I could definitely see the sun. But was that the idea?

There is no canned wisdom.

Sorting it out

They said the event had twenty-eight causes and that you could follow a thread back to each one. Each had its own color and they got all tangled up, because causes move. They get agitated. They don’t like taking the blame. They have their own causes to blame.