At Lake Ozette

We pitched our tents at Rialto,

then hiked north past Hole-in-the-Wall,

past the Chilean Memorial,

looped around Cape Johnson

and moved inward to Lake Ozette,

where we rested.

 

On the way back we clambered over

rocks in the dark, got trapped

by the tide, and had to spend the night

in shorts by a fire.

 

But back, finally, at our tents,

cooking pancakes, what I remembered –

and remember now most –

is my reading a poem, not my own,

at the lake, and faltering,

embarrassed:

who was I to read such a thing?

And your gently urging me on,

as though you could know and love in me

what I couldn’t yet love

in myself.

 

For John Daniels

And for Shelley and Darryl

Blue-eyed Wayne

I guess the idea there

was that if I met a student,

a seminarian,

of the Princeton Theological Seminary,

I’d see you could be that

and whatever came after

(a minister, a priest?)

and still have sex

or get married or both

and maybe she was suggesting

one of those for us,

though I doubt it now.

Wayne was friendly enough.

I’d like to know what I asked him,

since I didn’t know why

I was meeting him.

Mostly I was just in love with a girl –

and tennis and gin,

and a quarter-cut lime mixed with

theological ideas.

There are forgotten reasons why

There are forgotten reasons why

you didn’t do what you didn’t do,

but now you’ve only what still

never existed – Technicolor scenes

and whiskey ads, gunboats in Esquire,

the Senator before his subcommittee,

the microphone, people clinging

to his every word.

From where you watch he’s far away,

mute lips on a screen as sunlight

climbs the outer wall. Soon there’ll be

nothing left to catch it. It will unravel

in cold dark corners of space.